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| I'm born to be alone God, instead of taking a precious life away, please take mine instead. Take it as i'm begging you. | | |
| My first mission trip to cambodia!!! Honestly, I was really afraid and did not know what to expect. But I wrote down my expectations on the plane and realised I met most of it! In this trip, I really understand what is the true meaning of spirit of excellence and to rely on God! When I was lost during street E, God told me everything will be okay :) Just try your best! I also have awesome team mates to pray and encourage me! Seeing the families and kids receiving Christ, I feel the real joy inside me. It's just so different. I love siem reap, the kids, the food, the praise and worship we had on the bus, the bumby rides, my roomate, and the awesome peeps in tim <3 hanyang! Oh smth cool: Me and jon are both angels and mortals. Cool max :)
I'm gonna update more soon about the trip! For now.. I'm having post mt syndrome. Really missing everything there. I believe missions does not stop there though.. I must bring it back to singapore :) I will def go back there again!!!
Going to places like vienna now! quite excited :) I hope things will work out fine with my mum. It's the time I learn how to love. Pray for me guys! Lastly, happy birthday my bestest and cutest and my most awesome rachel tan! I  you dearly!!! It's just so good to see you everytime. I thank God that He placed such a special person in my life. I love how we can talk so much serious and crappy stuff everyday. We have to meet almost everyday! hahaha I really miss you just not seeing you for one day. It's crazy. Sometimes I think you're like my boyfriend. But really.. you're someone so unique in my life. I can share everything with you and you make me feel so comforrtable with you. All in all, I love you rachel tan! I'm sorry i'm not here during your birthday.. but i'm gonna message and call you. I don't care about the fees. hehehe. See you in 10 days love! <3 And i'm gonna miss x'mas bash :(((( Merry christmas guys! :) I love this season of the year. | | |
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Hi peeps, i'm back to blog before november ends!
Just wanna summarize what I did this month. I turned 17th and recieved so many blessings and hand made presents from all my friends. Thank you guys :)
It's the hols and i'm so in the holiday mood right now. Been going out everyday.. Really enjoyed going to kbox with rach t, yumin and adam cos we spammed chinese songs for 4.5 hours. Liz's party was a blast! (Happy birthday elizabeth! :) And not forgetting breaking dawn. My all time favouriteeee saga <3
Watched with them and made myself like a fool (as always) but it was great! I mean I wished edward cullen was real. And before I die, one of my biggest wish is to become a vampire. Had Carl's jr, spammed salsa sauce and lots of joking talks. Enjoyed myself with all the outings!
Watched you're the apple of my eye with char and xy :) it's such a sad show but worth it!
And right now.. I miss my friends! rachel tan, rachel lee and lim yumin! Hi guys, i'm not sure if you will ever see this... but I miss you guys. I still can't forgive myself for not being here on the 23/11 :(((((((
AHHHH 26 DAYS TO CHRISTMAS!!!! BUT I CAN'T GO FOR X'MAS BASH AND WILL BE SPENDING CHRISTMAS ON THE PLANE. sobxzzzz it's okay cos my family is there! Oh but i can't wait for rach t's partyyyy. I will go high confirm guarantee plus chop ^^ | | |
| Today marks an emotional night.
It's haunting me again. I prayed but it still hurts so so bad. No one will ever understand, except God.
But it's alright, I know I can handle all these!
IB is making me lose my social life!!! My clique went out a few times and I couldn't join them. People go for buffet and shopping and I can't join. I'm so stressed out with work that i'm physically drained.
I feel so left out! sigh.... and I don't even think I can go for kbox with my girls. Why can't I have 1 day where I can go out and relax and have fun?
I'm so sorry for writing negative tweets. But i'm not the perfect Christian. The pain that i'm going through.... it's just hard to share it with anyone or keep it within me.
The tears just keeps coming! I have to stop this and do my work.
My mum scolded me and threatened me for not going MT. I was even more upset after that. Got over it though....
Anyway... I enjoyed tok lesson today(: Got introduced to lots of jay chou songs. Listening to em now. hahaha I realised I was so deprived from chinese songs!!! But they're so nice to listen to!(:
I realized i'm gonna be seventeen soon. I don't want to grow old but i love seventeen. But i guess nothing special will happen this year. It will just be a quiet birthday this year. (:
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| Jie En is a strong girl! No one should pity her because she is strong. And she has God!
I promised God that I won't be thinking about anything I regret or about the past, but I can't help it. Why am I wasting my time thinking when I have a chemistry test the next day? Why am I feeling vulnerable? okay I should stop thinking already
Maybe I'm too stressed. #IB life makes me so tired. It makes me spent less time with my family and close friends. But i'll stay strong even though I don't know what holds the future for me. God has it all planned out for me, His perfect masterplan.
At times when I'm feeling sad, only He will understand. When no one understands you, only He will. Thanks why I thank God for Him, without Him, I don't know where i'll be now.. probably lost in life. I thank God that He found me.
I miss so many people right now. I miss NC. They make me feel so comfortable, like a family to me. I miss my clique. They make me forget about studies, they make me happy. I love being with them because they are like siblings. I miss my fav girls in acs. We went true so much together, they understand what i'm going through cos we are facing the stress together. I love laughing with them. They are like my sisters. I miss my everything with faith. We share life together, understand each other and will always be there for me! Always being so truthful. They are like my true friends. I miss my best friend, I miss the times we had together in fmss. Wish I could turn back time. I miss my sister and bro. I miss so many things. I hope I get to see some of them soon! Because each one of them makes me smile. Love you all, deeply.
Bye all. Tomorrow is a friday, all will be good. I hope (:
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